i lay on the lea of hope as the brazen summer rain washes the sanguinary and still scent of a passing winter's lash where a million stars will drop in awe of the unsullied and undefiled, pure and undefined, lucid, bright and virginal, for beyond
.I. - .am allergic to love.
.am addicted to pain, and thoughts of it.
.unconsciously inflict agony.
.indulge my temptations.
.am obsessed with the word ether.
.am still missing the white thing. .am still wandering. .am still, There.